Death: A Cyclical Ending & A New Beginning​

Before I dove into the depths of numerology and other mystical teachings I feared the signs of death. Also since now understanding, we are cyclical beings, forever experiencing a rebirth and death process, I celebrate the death of my cycles.

Today I am five years clean and sober and have experienced the signs of a cycle ending for the last few days. It started with a spray-painted grim reaper on a train I spotted and caught a film of two days ago. All though eery in nature, he was only passing by and was the first representation of ending a chapter.

Yesterday, while under the presence of the full moon I enjoyed a tarot reading for my sign, in which the death card presented itself. In tarot, the Death card simply symbolizes an ending of a cycle and or suffering of some sort, implying a new beginning is just around the corner.

Later that night, just before I went to bed, I kicked over my laundry bucket. Thinking to myself what does that mean again? I looked it up and It said: “to die.” At first, being shocked but then realizing my gut felt good and my heart felt full. Then it all clicked! These were all signs a cycle was ending. I did a little jump for joy and celebrated the ending of suffering.

Getting to five years clean I have endured many forms of suffering and have risen above all challenges presented to me. I am a scary strong, fierce and strong-willed I have learnt, a true force to be reckoned with.

After my little dance in celebration, I went to bed. Waking up to my 5 years today felt amazing and all though I wasn’t seeing fives. I was being shown 999.

9 is the last single digit, symbolizing the ending. 999 represents a cycle of completion. I giggled as I saw 999 on my radio and a license plate and thanked the Universe for the confirmation. I can feel it in every cell of my body, a new beginning is just around the corner and I can’t wait to see it unfold.

Teaching Each Other How To Be Human Again.

In the silence of the night, when my child is asleep.
I question the actions of my day.
Did I speed through the tasks?
Did I show up present?
Did he notice I was on my phone?
How can I be better?
How can I be more like him?
Curious about life.
Curious about all the new words, sounds and imagery.
Patient to try new things and experience the next adventure.

How can I be more like my child, my best teacher.
We play both the role of teacher and student.
I teach him how to grow safely in this world of chaos.
He teaches me how to just Be again.
We need each other.
We all need each other.
One cannot do this dance alone.

Let our children teach us how to Love again without prejudice and judgment.
Without worthiness based upon followers and likes.
Let their sacred routines of play, eating and napping inspire us to do the same.
As we try to teach them to share, let us deepen that practice within ourselves as well.
Where have I been a hypocrite to my teachings for my own child?
How can I be better tomorrow?

There will be laughs and tantrums but all are equally beautiful, as we continue to learn and unlearn from each other.
I forgive myself for any mistakes today and know the morning sun will shine and us to will rise.
Then the night will fall and us too, to our beds.
I will reflect, always, how the same love in me, is the same love in him.
As we both teach each other how to be human again.

I Woke Up, In Your Dream.

I remember the day I woke up in your dream.
Your dream was for me to stay small.
I was sad for myself and others to realize I had been conditioned to stay contained in someone else’s vision.
Programmed only to make a move when there’s a green light from someone else, the one in charge.
Make sure to not make anyone feel uncomfortable with my outspoken thoughts and philosophies.
Stay straight in line.
Go to school, get good grades and get that job that will comfort me till I die.
Buy that stuff, I really needed it they said.
Have 2 kids with a two-floor house and put all your stuff in there.
What if that wasn’t my dream at all?
I was living someone else’s dream.
Living to make someone else rich.
My whole life
Till now
I woke up
And will never play small again.

You Are A Someone.

You are the sum of everyone and an individual of The One
A holographic image, an illusion, only appearing separate from The One
You are the sum of the Stars and the Moons thoughout all the Galaxies, reflected back as One
There is no space and time between you and the rest of The One, only matter and Love
And what only matters is, We are from the same source of Love and You are a Someone

Im Done Dimming My Life.

I went to start by saying my intention to write this piece was to share that I am done dimming my light. As a went to type out the title, what appeared from my fingertips was “I am done dimming my life” and that’s exactly what I meant.

I’m done dimming my light for the comfort of others. I’m done dimming my light because I care what people think. I’m done dimming my light because I want to fit in. I have found the courage to stand alone. I’m done dimming my light to live for other people’s dreams and expectations. I’m done dimming my light to settle for a false security. I’m done dimming my light for the sake of false humility. I’m done dimming my light to wait for others approval. I’m done dimming light. I’m done dimming my life.

I would love to hear from you Lovers. Please let me know in the comments below if you are also done dimming your light too. We all walk in the dark at some time in our lives and we are all connected by the same light inside us. Find the light within, It’s time to light up your life!

The Patience Virtue.

They say patience is a virtue. A virtue is a “behavior showing high moral values.”

To embody this virtue I first had to accept and trust that the Universe is taking care of all my deepest desires. It will always provide for me, always, in Divine Timing. Because it always has and always will.

Let this serve you as a reminder to fulfill your obligation to plant your intentions and goals. Then allow the Universe to let them grow, in Divine Timing, as you water them and then admire their flowering.

Beautiful little Contradictions.

Within the web of our makeup

we cross paths with our layers

New and Old

we create contradictions

With the old and new

Evolving, involves crossing those paths

creating new strings to tie and grow

we are a web of beautiful little contradictions all tied into one.

Never doubt your validity because of your contradictions

you are simply outgrowing the old and expanding to the new

Sowing the new path into the space unknown takes courage

Courage is more favorable than stale ideas and beliefs

Weave your web with diamonds that sparkle

That shine your highest truest self, for all to see

Be the You, You were meant to be, in all you do

I see me and you see you, in all we do

For we are connected in the larger web

The web of Life, the web of Consciousness

From the same light, from the sparkle, of that diamond

From the same flow and space 

We are all made of beautiful little contradictions from the ever-evolving 

Universal 

Web 

of 

Life

29 Lessons.

  1. Fairness is not equality
  2. You have to feel it, to heal it
  3. Your body is your Souls temple
  4. The best way to lose weight is to eat healthily and exercise 
  5. Exercising looks different for everyone 
  6. Never get gym membership. You won’t go as much as you did the first three times, if ever again. 
  7. Love them all, trust a few
  8. Jealousy is your hearts desires
  9. Sitting in silence is mandatory 
  10. You are your greatest teacher
  11. Be here now
  12. Time does not exist
  13. Children are smarter than adults
  14. Magic happens in the flow
  15. You can have anything you put your mind to, you create your reality.
  16. Gratitude amplifies abundance
  17. Self-centredness is the core of addiction 
  18. We are one
  19. Everything is energy
  20. Balance is beautiful 
  21. You are the company you keep
  22. You are perfect the way you are
  23. Everything happens in divine timing
  24. Mindfulness is the key to enjoying life how it was intended 
  25. It’s not so much about learning new things, as it is about forgetting old habits
  26. Plants are teachers and healers
  27. You have to heal your past lives, still in this life
  28. Stress kills (number one offender for dis-ease)
  29. you chose your parents
  30. You also chose this reincarnation for a certain purpose and experience. So let’s stop complaining and start to enjoy it!