I drank the medicine of her kind words
I realized I was missing a piece
Caring for everyone needs but my own
Walking on eggshells, holding it all in
I lost myself like sand through my fingers
Her words made me burst
My eyes clouded with oceans
And rivers ran down my cheeks
The darkness I was harbouring churning in my stomach
How did I get here?
how did I get this far from myself
I thought I was fine
I can’t sit in muck for long
My soul knows where to bring me to shelter me from the chaos and harshness
Where I can relax and take it all in
I remain on eggshells as I hold it all in to protect my sacred vision for myself
It’s not their fault, I tell myself
They don’t know they deep down harbour wrath against me and my vision
My rebirth is happening
The rebirth after the birth
When you realize, you too have work left to do
You too, Mama, have an inner child that needs caring for
I’m shedding my unwanted layers
Tossing away your garbage I’ve carried for years
I’m done with what was, its time for my comeback.
I’ve ran into a handful of Bears in my adult life. Real Bears. A few of which have been uncomfortably close and my life has flashed before my eyes. Being in the presence of a Bear shakes me to my core. It wakes me up from my hibernation and reminds me to choose life again. Energetically speaking, I have never felt such powerful and grounding Energy emanate from another living Being.
After doing some research as to why I am such a “Bear Magnet,” which I was called during my time in Jasper Alberta, I have found the Bear to be my Spirit Animal. My personal Animal Medicine. My Bear encounters were signifying a new chapter of personal growth, towards Independence and a mere reflection of my own Inner Divinity. The Power within, I was afraid to tap into and unleash.
While crossing paths, with my Bears, my natural instincts have kicked in. Fight or Flight. Ive always picked Flight. Regardless of the suggestions not to run. Just as my reaction to run from the Bears, Ive had to learn to not run from my own Power. Embodying this Strong Grounding Energy myself has taken Practice and Devotion. Self Healing practices, such as Meditation, have taught me to sit with it instead of run.
My Animal Medicine has woken me up to be a Leader, an Energy Shifter and a Strong Independent Mother Bear. I am sitting with my Power and working towards Co-Creating my Dreams. My Soul will not be satisfied unless I do. What Desires are you Manifesting with your Divine Power? What Animal is crossing your path and reminding your Soul of its true potential once again.